Daily journal April 30, 2001, Hallelujah, praise the Lord God Almighty in Heaven and all over the universe where He is. What means the most to us in life? Is it the love of God, or love of self? Is it the love of money and pride or is it service? Someone e-mailed me a prayer at 2:00 a.m. today and I needed it so very much. I cry aloud to God for the healing of my body and mind. I pray for the renewing of mind to recreate it. I pray for understanding without confusion. I pray for the return of the opportunity that I missed. Sometimes the Lord has to set us up and pour his blessings down us. I have been a Jonah running from God but he has caught up with me and my heart aches to please him. I used to pray in the woods alone. The time when I had woods to hideaway in and to pray in. Amos 3-1 "Hear this word that the Lord has spoken against you, O children of Israel, against a whole family which I brought up from the land of Egypt, saying, 2-You only have I known of all the families of the earth: therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities. 3-Can two walk together except they agreed? 4-will a lion roar in the forest when he has no pray? Will a young lion cry out of his den, if he have taken nothing? Dear Lord, help us in this serious time to turn hearts toward thee. Reveal Thyself Lord. Number 2 in pleasing the New World Order in living "Avoid talking about religion are politics. No matter how innocent your speech may be, it could be misinterpreted and recorded in your government personal thought dossier". Electronic surveillance now pick up certain words that may alert them to hostility. In other words play it safe and be quite. The breath of the Lord God is within me and I appreciate everyday I have to serve Him. I daydream of when a surprise that they give me the land back with money to compensate for all the damage done somehow but I realize it is not going to happen that way. We've gone astray, the principles of God still apply to our daily lives and God will not tolerate slowness. There's never anytime to waste, people or dying without Christ in the world. Why should I need to compare now to the past and try to determine if I am better off or not. The court is stack toward a landlord mentality and that's why and how the laws are written but they are not all the law, only rules of operation in violating the Constitution.

I have been to Hell and back to identify the problem. Now I pray Lord that You will return the opportunity. I let the devil steal it all. I feel released with new energy in my feet and legs and I believe my healing is sure. I cannot block it out, I must face reality. I had to face it and I just did. My mind replays every word spoken and every site seen.

It has been said that teachers in public schools today spent 20% of their time teaching and 80 percent of part-time disciplining the kids. Discipline is not working and that is why we have so much trouble in the schools. The public schools are referred to on the public airways as a mess and I say that is an understatement. We have become a guarded nation with police guards in the schools and airports, every courthouse big time security. The atomic like blast on planet Jupiter as seen last week is evidence that Atomic Energy has been in the universe forever but we are just now discovering it and putting it to use. The condition in California and although the West Coast is trying for the average citizen living to pay the higher rent, 400% increase in some utility's like natural-gas and electric power. Water bills reported to be $200 per month and gasoline up again so high by 50%. At the same time the Silicon Valley crisis worsens with massive layoffs and improvement not in sight. We face a grave crisis in this country of hungry, sick and suffering people. This is a holiday in Red China and Russia when they show all their military hardware traditionally on May 1st it is a long weekend. The end is surely near of the day of grace.